Somebody get me out of my head today. Someone this smart really should not be given the opportunity when in self-loathing mode to twist ideas, beat oneself up, and mangle good thoughts into self-destructing, mother guilt overload. I am startled by my inability to think of a viable solution to a current problem to the point of being frozen by fear of how incompetant my good intentions, love, dedication and honest drive to be a good parent has still led me down these horrible paths that I was not able to see coming. No one has ever accused me of being dumb... so why can I not figure out a solution??
I cannot write anything sane right now because I am too busy being: