Friday, May 11, 2007

a fleeting feeling ... quick hold on before it goes away again ...

Yesterday I made a huge decision. A decision I have struggled with off and on for more years than I care to admit. I did a pro-con list again and this time it worked. I realized I am only hurting myself to not let it go. And I did it. I struggled with this decision, executed it and left work early to get it out of my system. I cried and walked and played a bit and just let myself feel it.

I woke this morning raw. Like I have fought the battle of life and was rewarded by my love. You know that feeling just after making love?

..when all your breathing feels gracious?

When you feel you have mapped out somewhere no one else has been. You can feel it in your chest, your toes tingle and your skin is raw.

Was that your lavender breath in my hair?

Here is a little something else. My favourite poem. I wanted to share it again.

4 comments:

Tbone said...

I cried yesterday. I haven't cried in a really long time. I said everything I needed to say to someone I care about, and although the reaction was not what I wanted and it hurt more than I imagined, I feel like the weight is a little less today.

KellyNerd said...

aw pretty girl... I'm sorry to hear that. Sounds like unrequited love.... nothing worse ...

kerstin said...

These moments, while heart wrenching, are just the kind of soul cleansing we all need from time to time.

Ryann said...

I hope you're doing better with your tough choicesthan I am with mine. I know that feeling all too well.

good luck.